An Update

Soon it will be a year since I last competed. So what has a year of non-prep given me?

My body fat & weight is at a peak. It’s not at an unhealthy high just higher than it’s been this last year. Interestingly neither of those factors consumes me at the magnitude they once did. It’s not that I don’t think about it or I’ve changed my goal instead I upgraded my view. Now I think about how I’m building myself rather than what I need to lose. I focus on the strength I’ve gained instead of the deep cuts I’ve lost. And the opportunities I’ve gotten to enlist in to have an ever expanding circle of friends.

When I direct my energy to what I don’t have or what I need to lose it sends a negative message to my conscious. Then it eats at me & clouds my outlook. When I get in my head I divert my thought process to recognize the gains not the losses.

I think this is incredibly important to remind myself of this more than ever. Not just with fitness but in life as a whole. When faced with trials it might be difficult to find the gain but if you seek it out you will find it. This lets me keep pushing forward & appreciate all the incredible things I have.

I can confidently share this last year has been a journey of enlightenment, humbleness & fantastic opportunities. As usual thank you for letting me share & I’m looking forward to what’s to come.


Best wishes~


Picture by Joey Lyday Aug 2012


2 thoughts on “An Update

  1. I am in the same place (mentally). I last competed in May, and it had been a year between shows. I am now working on building up the muscle that is so hard to grow, and impossible if you are dieting for a competition. I am giving myself at least a year, so I will see how my physique looks in February and decide then. For the first time ever I am working with a nutrition coach, and I am very, very glad that I have decided to do this. It has changed my body incredibly in such a short time already, I am very pleased and excited to see what the future holds.

    I think we are all too hard on ourselves, and at your heaviest, you probably look better than 90% of the women around you!

    • Thanks for sharing! I agree working with a nutritionist allows you to learn so much. I also agree we tend to put high expectations on ourselves. It’s good to not settle but to appreciate what you have while working towards getting better. Thanks again for sharing!!! Excited to see what you decide come February!

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